Sweet girls

I love them.
Claire's smile while she's talking.
MJ's squishy rolls.
I almost want to wake them up.
Almost.

But then I remember that MJ will want to eat all the time and will whine about not being able to reach the toys she wants. She's finally frustrated about being immobile.

And then I remember that Claire will probably be bossy and beg to watch more Backyardigans.

So I will let them sleep so I can have a much needed break.

To watch Friday Night Lights. (again)

So I will be ready to begin a new day tomorrow.

They've started interacting even more.
And sweet MJ worships her big sister.

My heart walking around times 2.
I love them.

The Secret of My Success (lately)

I feel like I have a better handle on life.

Seriously.

My kiddos are a (little) older. We're sleeping well.

I finally turned a corner where I feel like I can be ME and have two kiddos. Really, I'm not being dramatic, up until this point, I felt like life was on hold until these kiddos left for college. Well, not even on hold, but OVER. I could not make sense of what life was supposed to look like with kids.

But suddenly, I'm having a lot more fun with my kids. I'm doing stuff around my house. I'm enjoying my outside-the-home-job, I'm remembering (some) things again. And I've been more present with friends, family, and the husband.

If you know me well, you know that I've had a really, REALLY hard time adjusting to being a Mama. I can't explain it in one post, but I've felt compelled to talk about it because no one does.

Sure we complain about being tired, not being a good mama, etc, but I have felt like a stranger just trying to survive for the last two and half years.

That is, up until a few months ago.

I don't know what changed but something did and I am oh so grateful that God pulled me out. Because I believe it's because of Him.

So what's keeping me going lately. What's the secret of my success?

1. Reading "Jesus Calling" every morning. Love it so much.

2. Listening to 99.1 Joyfm in my car. Cheesy, sometimes.

3. Intentionally turning the tv off during naptime and at night. (not all the time)

4. This iced coffee recipe. Oh my word.

5. Trying to save money. I'm more creative and it feels good to accomplish this.

6. Slowing down. I'm intentionally stopping myself from always thinking of the next whatever that's going to happen.

I want to look back on this time while my kiddos are young and remember that I DID enjoy it.

What do you need to change or start doing to take care of yourself in the midst of baby/child chaos?

I'm still here

Honestly, I just have no idea what to write anymore.

This blog is just a whole lot of randomness and I'm not sure where to go with it.

So I just stopped writing altogether.

Then I came to an epiphany: I'm pretty random, this blog is mine, so why do I have to have it a certain way?

So I'm going to write more and not care what it is or isn't.

Stay tuned.